Saturday, 30 December 2017

My Brother My Friend



I lost someone today, a brother from my time in Milwaukee he was a wonderful man, loving, kind fearless and a big influence on how I did my work for seven years. Now I am sitting here remembering him, missing him but part of me is thinking that he would be kicking me in the ass if he was here. I not getting on with the work, and that would bother him, I do think he would understand I am still rebuilding my life and yes Brother that's is working out. I have a good job, a fantastic wife and a son who fills me with joy and I know as ou said, “The work will always be there, lots to be done all the time.”

Take care Brother.....

I hope you can rest from all the work you did, have a scotch, eat some unhealthy food, no salad, and if you get a chance say a prayer for the brothers that you have left behind, I know you were a man with some fire in your ass...



Take Care and God Bless



Good Enough

Sunday, 24 December 2017

For Today

Prep For Visits

I am going to my sisters today so I have made a cheesecake..... It’s done, ready to go...

For tonight for myself and Cindy Lou it’s chocolate pie made from scratch....

And boy does it look good....

Take Care and God Bless

Merry Christmas


Good Enough

Roads and Yes



Luke 1:26-38

In the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent by God to a town in Galilee called Nazareth, to a virgin engaged to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David. The virgin’s name was Mary.

And he came to her and said, “Hail, full of grace! The Lord is with you.” But she was much perplexed by his words and pondered what sort of greeting this might be.

The angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found favor with God. And now, you will conceive in your womb and bear a son, and you will name him Jesus. He will be great, and will be called the Son of the Most High, and the Lord God will give to him the throne of his ancestor David. He will reign over the house of Jacob forever, and of his kingdom there will be no end.”

Mary said to the angel, “How can this be, since I am a virgin?”

The angel said to her, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; therefore the child to be born will be holy; he will be called Son of God. And now, your relative Elizabeth in her old age has also conceived a son; and this is the sixth month for her who was said to be barren. For nothing will be impossible with God.”

Then Mary said, “Here am I, the servant of the Lord; let it be with me according to your word.” Then the angel departed from her.

Roads
I have spent a lot of my life looking for the right road....

I was in the army, I was a cook, I was a warehouse guy, I was a salesman, I lived in religious life for many many years and all that time the road I was on changed from time to time. I would ask God to “Put my feet” on the right road, and he never failed to come through. All of my past experiences have added to the person I am, to the spouse I am, the father I am, the worker I am and even the kind of minister, or lay minister that I am. As I look at my life every time I have said “yes” to God on where my life should lead it has always worked out fantastically. I have been told more than a few times that I could not change the course of my life but I have always been able to with the Lords help, and now I have a good job, a wonderful wife and a beautiful son and every day I still find the Lord working away to “put my feet” on his road.....

Now I read this Gospel in another season of my life, and this time, I find myself drawn to the word perplexed. Mary’s “yes” is not immediate or easy, and she asks one specific question: How? What are the mechanics of this impossible pregnancy? The angel’s answer is far less specific: a rather vague assurance that God has a hand in this.

Somewhere between becoming a parent and simply becoming older, I find myself growing more attuned to the brokenness of this world. The beauty and wholeness of the little life entrusted to me stand in heartbreaking contrast to the pervasive ugliness of sin and selfishness. I am perplexed, bewildered, greatly troubled by the seemingly endless creativity with which we humans harm each other. 

Once again, though, Mary of the Annunciation stands as companion and inspiration. Her response to bewilderment is not to despair but to ponder. She lets her questions, her uncertainty, her trepidation draw her deeper into the mystery of who God is and how God works in this world. She takes the angel at his word: vague though it may seem, God does have a hand in this, and perhaps that answer is enough after all. 

And, eventually, Mary’s bewilderment gives way to wonder—wonder expressed in the praise-filled Magnificat she will sing in the next scene. So at the end of this Advent season, I pray for endurance in pondering, so that bewilderment at God’s apparent absence might give way to wonder at God’s ever-promised presence. When we say “yes” God’s hand becomes so evident that its impossible to miss.

Merry Christmas

Take Care and God Bless

Good Enough


Every day

Good Morning Gentle Readers

Every day I said this at prayer, and every day it touched my soul, today I find myself thinking about it.....

Give it a read and take from it what you think


Take Care and God Bless

Good Enough

The Canticle Of Mary

My soul proclaims the greatness of the Lord
My spirit rejoices in God my Savior
For he has looked with favour on his lowly servant
From this day all generations will call me
Blessed; the Almighty has done great things for me
And Holy is His name

He has mercy on those who fear him in every generation
He has shown the strength of his arm,
He has scattered the proud in their conceit
He has cast down the mighty from their thrones
And has lifted up the lowly

He has filled the hungry with good things
and he rich he has sent away empty

He has come to the help of His servant Israel
For He has remembered His promise of mercy
The promise he made to our fathers
To Abraham and His children forever

Glory to the Father and the Son and to the Holy Spirit
As it was in the beginning, is now, and will be forever



Amen

That's A Thousand

Good Morning Gentle Readers


Well that's a thousand page views.....

For all of you who have had a look...

Thank you, I hope you liked what you saw


Take Care and God Bless

and of course

Merry Christmas



Good Enough 

Saturday, 16 December 2017

Yes

Good Morning Gentle Readers

I would love to take credit for this one but I can't

Take Care and God Bless

Good Enough




Luke 1:26-38

In the sixth month the angel Gabriel was sent by God to a town in Galilee called Nazareth, to a virgin engaged to a man whose name was Joseph, of the house of David. The virgin’s name was Mary. 

And he came to her and said, “Hail, full of grace! The Lord is with you.” But she was much perplexed by his words and pondered what sort of greeting this might be. 

The angel said to her, “Do not be afraid, Mary, for you have found favor with God. And now, you will conceive in your womb and bear a son, and you will name him Jesus. He will be great, and will be called the Son of the Most High, and the Lord God will give to him the throne of his ancestor David. He will reign over the house of Jacob forever, and of his kingdom there will be no end.” 

Mary said to the angel, “How can this be, since I am a virgin?”

The angel said to her, “The Holy Spirit will come upon you, and the power of the Most High will overshadow you; therefore the child to be born will be holy; he will be called Son of God. And now, your relative Elizabeth in her old age has also conceived a son; and this is the sixth month for her who was said to be barren. For nothing will be impossible with God.”

Then Mary said, “Here am I, the servant of the Lord; let it be done to me according to your word.” Then the angel departed from her.

Let it be with me according to your word.”

Thus everything changed. Perhaps contrary to our cultural idiom, Mary’s fiat is not the domesticated, tired tale that we see enacted by children each year at Christmastime. Rather, it is a “yes” that sits at the very centre of Christianity’s theo-drama—for as we know, Mary’s unhesitating, perfect cooperation with God’s grace initiates that glorious mystery of our redemption.

For centuries, the Christian imagination has been captivated by the strange amalgamation that surrounds Mary’s humble yet resonating “yes”—the angel’s Ave, the paradoxical juxtaposition of God’s transcendence and immanence, the clear references to Scriptural fulfillment. From St. Irenaeus’ defense of Mary as the New Eve to Gerard Manley Hopkins’ poetic reminder that this fiat “gave God’s infinity/Dwindled to infancy/Welcome in womb and breast,” the Christian mind continually, and rightfully, returns to her “let it be done.”

But as members of a society that has hyper-emphasized a muddled understanding of freedom, we struggle to respond to our daily callings with Mary’s ready, “Here am I.” Unlike Mary, our modern culture compels us to say, “Let it be done according to my word.” But today’s Gospel challenges us to imitate Mary’s faithfulness—despite the reality that our own “yes” is often hidden behind what is seemingly mundane or routine. Nevertheless, each response to the good, from changing a dirty diaper to working with Mother Teresa’s Sisters of Mercy, is ultimately a response to the one who is the source of that good; today’s Gospel refreshes us with that certainty.

And because we are celebrating Mary’s Immaculate Conception, let us remember that God has given the Church this “favored one” not only to be the Theotokos, the Mother of God, but also to be our gracious advocate. We, who so frequently neglect the movements of grace in our lives, are invited to seek the intercession of the one who is “full of grace” so that all our souls may “proclaim the greatness of the Lord…[and] rejoice in God [our] Savior” (Luke 1:46-47).


Saturday, 9 December 2017

Not My Reflection

Reflection on Advent:

God travels wonderful ways with human beings, but he does not comply with the views and opinions of people. God does not go the way that people want to prescribe for him; rather, his way is beyond all comprehension, free and self-determined beyond all proof. Where reason is indignant, where our nature rebels, where our piety anxiously keeps us away: that is precisely where God loves to be.

There he confounds the reason of the reasonable; there he aggravates our nature, our piety—that is where he wants to be, and no one can keep him from it. Only the humble believe him and rejoice that God is so free and so marvelous that he does wonders where people despair, that he takes what is little and lowly and makes it marvelous. And that is the wonder of all wonders, that God loves the lowly….

God is not ashamed of the lowliness of human beings.

God marches right in.

He chooses people as His instruments and performs his wonders where one would least expect them. God is near to lowliness; he loves the lost, the neglected, the unseemly, the excluded, the weak and broken.”

by Dietrich Bonhoeffer 

Butter Crust Apple Pie


This one works really well




2 1/2 cups (325 grams) all-purpose flour
1 teaspoon kosher salt
1 tablespoon sugar, optional
1 cup (230 grams) very cold unsalted butter, cut into 1/2-inch cubes (2 sticks)
6 to 8 tablespoons ice water
    Add 1 1/2 cups flour, salt and sugar (optional) to a medium bowl. Stir 2 to 3 times until combined.
    Scatter butter cubes over flour and mix briefly with a fork or spatula to coat the butter with flour.
    Cut the butter into the flour, working mixture until the flour has a coarse, mealy texture similar to fresh bread crumbs. About 1 – 2 minutes.
    Add remaining 1 cup of flour. Work butter and flour until flour is evenly distributed. (Dough should look crumbly with pea-sized pieces).
    Sprinkle 6 tablespoons of ice water over mixture. Using a spatula, press the dough into itself. The crumbs should begin to form larger clusters. If you pinch some of the dough and it holds together, it’s ready. If the dough falls apart, add 1 to 2 tablespoons of extra water and continue to press until dough comes together.
    Remove dough from bowl and place in a mound on a clean surface. Work the dough just enough to form a ball. Cut ball in half then form each half into discs. Wrap each disc with plastic wrap and refrigerate at least 1 hour, and up to 2 days. You can also freeze it for up to 3 months (just thaw it overnight in the fridge before using).
    Remove one of the dough discs from the refrigerator and let sit at room temperature for 5 minutes.
    Lightly flour work surface, top of dough and rolling pin. Then use rolling pin to roll out dough to a 12-inch circle (about 1/8-inch thick). Be sure to check if the dough is sticking to the surface below — add a small amount of flour when necessary.
    Check for size by inverting pie dish over dough round. Look for a 1-inch edge around the pie dish. To transfer dough to dish, starting at one end, roll dough around rolling pin then unroll over dish.
    Gently press dough down into dish so that it lines the bottom and sides of the dish. (Be careful not to pull or stretch the dough). Then, use a knife or pair of kitchen scissors to trim dough to within 1/2-inch of the edge of the dish.
    Fold edge of dough underneath itself so that it creates a thicker, 1/4-inch border that rests on the lip of the dish. Then, crimp edges by pressing the pointer finger of one hand Prepare your pastry for a two crust pie. Wipe, quarter, core, peel, and slice apples; measure to 6 cups.
    Against the edge of the dough from the inside of the dish while gently pressing with two knuckles of the other hand from the outside. Refrigerate dough at least 20 minutes or freeze for 5 minutes before baking.
    If making a double crust pie, do not crimp edges yet. Roll out second dough disc, fill pie then top with second dough round. Trim the edges then crimp.
For the filling well thats the simple part
Combine sugar and cinnamon to taste
Grab a bunch of brown sugar
Arrange the apples in layers and sprinkle the sugar, cinnamon and brown suger over top, repeat until you have enough to fill the pan with a good mound to boot.
Toss in a few more butter pieces on the top
Put your top layer of crust over top and put holes in it to let he steam escape.
Place on the lowest rack in your oven in a preheated oven (450), bake for ten minutes then reduce the temperature to 350 and bake for 35 minutes longer.
Done


Sunday, 3 December 2017

Cheesecake Who Knew



Good Evening Gentle Readers

Yesterday I made a cheesecake, It was my first and i thought it was just spectacular.... So did Cindy lo so I am really happy with it..


You will Need

1-1/4 Cups of Graham Cracker Crumbs

1/4 Cup Sugar

1/4 Cup Butter (Melted)

3 Eggs

4 250 gram packages of cream cheese, leave it on your counter so its soft

1 14 ounce can of Sweetened Condensed Cream


The Crust

Melt the butter over a really low heat

Take the Sugar and combine it with the graham crumbs

Add your melted butter

Take your sugar and graham crumbs mixture and pat it down as equally as you can in the bottom of a nine inch spring form pan

Done.......


Take your cream cheese and mix it together into one big super glob of cream cheese

Whisk you eggs then add that in

Pour the whole can of condensed cream in and mix it until its a uniform liquid

Pour that into your pan and put into an over preheated to 300 degrees Fahrenheit for 55 minutes


Now the hard part

Take the baked cheesecake out of the oven and store in you fridge overnight
At brunch or lunch take it out of the fidge and we used chocolate sauce as the topping. Cindy Lo just drizzled it all over in her artsy way until it looked wonderful

Enjoy enjoy




Advent

Good Morning Gentle Readers
Well I have taken my family to Church, it was a nice mass and it was wonderful to see my 19 month old son trying to sing along with the congregation. We came home and I took out the cheesecake, my gorgeous Cindy Lo did the chocolate over the top, it looks just fantastic. Now its time for and advent reflection….
The coming or arrival, especially of something extremely important: the advent of the computer
The word "advent," from the Latin adventus (Greek parousia), means "coming" or "arrival." The Advent Season is focused on the "coming" of Jesus as Messiah. Christian worship, Bible readings, and prayers not only prepare us spiritually for Christmas (his first coming), but also for his eventual second coming. This is why the Bible readings during Advent include both Old Testament passages related to the expected Messiah, and New Testament passages concerning Jesus' second coming. Also, passages about John the Baptist, the precursor who prepared the way for the Messiah, are read. All of these themes are present in Catholic worship during Advent, which the catechism succinctly describes:
When the Church celebrates the liturgy of Advent each year, she makes present this ancient expectancy of the Messiah, for by sharing in the long preparation for the Savior's first coming, the faithful renew their ardent desire for his second coming. By celebrating the precursor's birth and martyrdom, the Church unites herself to his desire: "He must increase, but I must decrease" (524).
Since Advent looks forward to Christ's birth and Incarnation, it is an appropriate way to begin the Church Year. However, Advent is not part of the Christmas season itself, but a preparation for it.
I have always looked at advent as waiting, waiting for Christmas, waiting for a time of celebration with family and friends, but while advent is in a way about waiting it is a different kind of waiting, it is more about preparation.
In the book of Isaiah we hear "I am the LORD, your God who grasp your right hand; 
 It is I who say to you, 'Fear not, 
I will help you.'" (Isaiah 41:13.)
Much is made of how the Old Testament prophets were seemingly quite ornery and usually harbingers of the message of God's judgment against Israel, often due to a lack of following the covenantal prescriptions of the law and for oppressing the poor and vulnerable. However this is but "one side of the coin" of what prophetic ministry is all about.


Prophet's were very basically persons who were called by God to share to some degree in the vision of God's plan for all creation. The covenant laid out by God with the Israelites, and that continues to be handed down even to this day, isn't a "quid-pro-quo" arrangement or "rulebook" for how to curry divine favor. In other words, following the prescriptions of the covenant, Ten Commandments, or Jesus' teachings doesn't entail "checking the blocks" in our relationship with God so as to reap temporal rewards! Rather, abiding by God's promises means sharing in God's vision for creation that the covenant points to as possibilities for a world in desperate need of healing and radical reorientation.

When one begins to share in God's life and the vision that God has for the world that surrounds us, one can't help but become a "harbinger" of concern for the world and hope for the world. In other words, seeing the world more and more as God does, in all of its grandeur, pain, difficulty, glory, brokenness, and hopefulness cannot help but stir the impulse to respond by critiquing what doesn't mesh with the divine vision and pointing to what does coincide with God's plan.
The crux of the matter really comes down to opting to be drawn into divine life, opting to share in the divine way of envisioning, and then opting to work toward making that vision a reality for our world. (5 min)
The question becomes then how do we go to about finding that vision, how do we “see through God’s eyes”. I was recently reminded that prayer is not a ATM, you know insert your credentials, make your request and then wait for the response, it has never worked that way, that’s a very human way of looking, a human way of seeing but I don’t think that it’s God’s way, and in this time of advent perhaps we need to take a look at how we look.
In the past I have heard a lot of metaphors for what prayer is and some of them were just lovely but the one that I think is the most accurate is that prayer stills us enough so that we can act as a tuning fork and tune in and resonate God. “Everything exposed to the light itself becomes light” says Ephesians (5:13) in prayer we are trying to look at that light, trying to reflect it, to become attuned to it, “And we all, who with unveiled faces contemplate the Lord’s glory, are being transformed into his image with ever-increasing glory, which comes from the Lord, who is the Spirit.” (2 Corinthians 3:18). So prayer transforms the person, prayer becomes the fuel, the vision, and hopefully the courage to act upon that vision.

When I look at advent I see it as a time to prepare, a time to change, a time to “make ready” but I also see it as a time to build, a time to capture that vision, to use the gift that God has already given, his indwelling spirit, it is a time to take a hold of God’s right hand, a time to “thresh the mountains and crush them, and reduce the hills to chaff.” A time to know that “The poor and needy search for water, but there is none; their tongues are parched with thirst. And it is God’s gift to us to be able to “make rivers flow on barren heights, and springs within the valleys” to bring water to the desert.

Saturday, 2 December 2017

Six Minutes

Six Minutes

In six minutes I will take my first cheesecake out of the oven....

I am sitting here waiting....


And my Hab’s are winning against the Red Wings 9-1



Take Care and God Bless



Good Enough 

Be Aware

 Be Aware

Good Evening Gentle Readers

Well it’s here, Advent, it’s time to take stock of where we are and know that the Kingdom of Heaven is at hand......


Luke 21:34-36

Jesus said to his disciples, “Be on guard so that your hearts are not weighed down with dissipation and drunkenness and the worries of this life, and that day does not catch you unexpectedly, like a trap. For it will come upon all who live on the face of the whole earth.

Be alert at all times, praying that you may have the strength to escape all these things that will take place, and to stand before the Son of Man.”

Be alert at all times, praying…” These words seem to anticipate our sluggishness, our drowsiness, our lack of vigilance. But I suspect that our daily lives actually offer a sharp contrast to lethargy.
 
I had to ask myself when am I not alert. When I am at work I am listening for phone calls, waiting for people to come in, checking my email, looking at my phne its non stop.

We’re constantly alert. Many of us fall asleep with our phones, wake up to our phones, check constantly on the goals our devices set for us, and spend much of the waking day responding to the latest beep or ping. Our willingness and ability to be alert is generally not a problem.
 
But, “Be alert at all times, praying…” provides a solemn challenge, one that extends beyond my awareness that the Son of Man will come again and I know not when. Jesus calls me to ask God for the strength to live well, with my heart awake. I should ask for this continually, without ceasing. 

What if I prayed for God’s assistance as constantly as I keep an eye on my e-mail? What if my consciousness that I need God’s help were as constant as my consciousness that someone-might-be-trying-to-contact-me-right-now?
 
The Advent season we begin tomorrow is not a time to abandon the work and the relationships that are rightly important to us. But it is a time to revisit what we watch for and which of our daily “alerts” really matter. When we find some that don’t, we find space to be vigilant and pray.   

I find myself being very aware when important customers are in, or looking for my help. Should I not be just as aware when the Lord is asking me to act, or asking me to love as the most important customer?

Wednesday, 22 November 2017

What Do You Have

What Do You Have

One of the more misunderstood Gospel passages


Luke 19: 11-28


While people were listening to Jesus speak, he went on to tell a parable, because he was near Jerusalem, and because they supposed that the kingdom of God was to appear immediately. 

So he said, “A nobleman went to a distant country to get royal power for himself and then return. He summoned ten of his servants, and gave them ten gold coins, and said to them, ‘Do business with these until I come back.’ 

But the citizens of his country hated him and sent a delegation after him, saying, ‘We do not want this man to rule over us.’ When he returned, having received royal power, he ordered these servants, to whom he had given the money, to be summoned so that he might find out what they had gained by trading. 

The first came forward and said, ‘Lord, your gold coin has made ten more coins.’ He said to him, ‘Well done, good servant! Because you have been trustworthy in a very small thing, take charge of ten cities.’ 

Then the second came, saying, ‘Lord, your coin has made five more.’ He said to him, ‘And you, rule over five cities.’ 

Then the other came, saying, ‘Lord, here is your gold coin. I wrapped it up in a piece of cloth, for I was afraid of you, because you are a harsh man; you take what you did not deposit, and reap what you did not sow.’ 

He said to him, ‘I will judge you by your own words, you wicked servant! You knew, did you, that I was a harsh man, taking what I did not deposit and reaping what I did not sow? Why then did you not put my money into the bank? Then when I returned, I could have collected it with interest.’ 

He said to the bystanders, ‘Take the gold coin from him and give it to the one who has ten.’ But they said to him, ‘Lord, he has ten coins!’ 

He replied, ‘I tell you, to all those who have, more will be given; but from those who have nothing, even what they have will be taken away. But as for these enemies of mine who did not want me to be king over them—bring them here and slaughter them in my presence.’”

After he had said this, he went on ahead, going up to Jerusalem.


Good Morning Gentle Readers
Today's Gospel is a hard one for a lot of people. No its not a story about wealth and gaining power, no, it’s not a story about being a spendthrift, or even about bad management. It is a story about the kingdom of God and what will be expected of us to be there. We have to be Kingdom builders, we cannot sit on the sidelines and expect an invitation to the party, we have to make it happen, we have to do our part.


Jesus, portrayed as the nobleman in today’s Gospel, is establishing God’s kingdom. The gold coins he offers his servants are investments in this kingdom: opportunities to love. Those servants who use their gold coins are welcomed into the kingdom. The ones who do not—whether out of fear or laziness, selfishness or busyness—deprive themselves and others of opportunities to love and are therefore unfit for the kingdom of love. 

Opportunities to love will come our way today. When we meet them, let’s keep Jesus’ words in mind: “To all those who have, more will be given, but from those who have nothing, even what they have will be taken away.”

Thursday, 9 November 2017

Well they Are Doing Better

Good Evening Gentle Readers

Well my Hab's are trying



And there record is getting better



Take Care and God Bless

Good Enough

Wednesday, 18 October 2017

Fiddlers Green


A Love Story
By Good Enough

The sunrise was hours away as he finished loading the wagon, stores for six months if he was careful, his goat, his cow, the black pony, tools, and the most valuable thing he owned, the single man plow. As he tightened the leather straps and checked the rigging on the black his concentration was interrupted by the sound of the heavy latch on the barn door being slowly lifted aside. He turned to look, his sister Kate squeezed through the door, barely opening it more than a crack. Kate stood on the dirt and straw floor barefoot in her nightgown her long sun brown hair falling like waves on her shoulders; she had one arm on the pull rope as she carefully placed the latch back in its holder and one arm behind her back as if she was hiding something. “William” she whispered, “You’re really going?” Of course he was, he had, in truth been gone for months. “Father won’t let me be, he will have me in the Pennsylvania Regulars on my birthday, and by the time I turn seventeen I will be fighting some God awful war somewhere, I can’t be that man Bug, so I’m going to go.” Kate looked at him with wide sad eyes; “Bug” had been his name for her for years all through their childhood, which was ending this very moment. “William I’m coming with you” she stated, but she knew his answer was no.”Then who will take care of mother, you know father wont.” She ran over to her big brother and wrapped her arms around his neck, “I’ll come some day when you’re settled, it will be fine, I can cook any you can farm, we will just care for each other just like always.” Tears welled up in her eyes. He pulled away from her, “I have to be on the way before father get’s up so you go back to bed, and when I am all settled I will send for you.” She smiled as he wiped the tears from her eyes, “You go Bug.” She stepped back and brought her arm around her lithe frame, “The fiddle” she said, as she handed him an old worn fiddle in a hard leather case. “Grand paw would have wanted you to have it, and here.” She handed him one more treasure, “Grand’s compass so you can find your way back to me.” He took both items and placed them on the rickety wood seat of the small wagon, and then embraced his sister one more time.
It was months of travel, he went on what logging trails he could find, and cut trails where he had to. He passed by York County, and kept himself as far from the settlements as he could, he knew that by now he was a wanted man. His father would have called the constabulary and most likely his old friends in the Regulars, you could hang for what he had done. He crossed the border at the Niagara River making the crossing at night in a shallow part of it course, once again avoiding the logging camps and small settlements along the riverbank. Then he cut a path as straight as an arrow to a spot on an old map his Grand had used when he was a trapper for the Hudson’s Bay.
He arrived in the late fall, and the first breaths of winter were on the land. He worked like a man possessed by the devil himself, for he knew that he couldn’t live in the wagon over a winter, nor could his animals, so he worked every day until exhaustion crept on him in the late hours, and then up before the sun the next day. In time he had a wood house with a door you could close and a window with two shutters and a Soddy barn for his animals. The winter was brutal, he lived on birch soup and small rodents that he managed to trap as they tried to get out of the cold and the frost. One of the things that kept him alive was the fiddle, at night in the cold and the wind he would play until he could sleep. He would think of the warm air and the fields of golden grain and play songs that spoke to the sun, begging it to return.
On what he guessed was the fourth week of Advent he had his first visitor. The man was big and was riding a heavy grey horse the size of a draft, its steel hooves digging even into the frozen earth. He called out to the house, “Hail in the house, I be an enemy of no man just looking for rest from the devils own wind”. Young William was more than a little worried when he saw the long rifle on the man’s saddle, and of course the size of him was more than a little concerning. William hadn’t talked to anyone in what felt like a lifetime and that was probably the biggest motivator for inviting the man in.
He introduced himself as Falstaff, a trapper and long rider as he took off the layers of fur he wore. Even out of the furs he was a huge man with bear like arms and wind burned and weathered skin, long grey and black hair that he had held with a bone comb, and a beard like Father Christmas almost half way down his chest in length, it was his eyes however that fascinated William the most, deep blue like a lake frozen solid all the way to the bottom. William offered him some food and the heat of his fire, “Birch soup boy, oh come now that’s no meal for men like us.” Falstaff laughed. He slapped William on the shoulder and nearly drove him to his knees. William hadn’t been eating too well, working so hard had turned every ounce of him into taunt muscle and sinew, but truth be told he was a small framed boy, especially in comparison to the towering Falstaff. “Throw a bit more of that birch on your fire boy,” Falstaff remarked, “Tonight we feast”, he got up and went outside to his mount, when he came back in he had a slab of deer meat that could have choked a horse.
The smell of the meat roasting over the fire nearly drove William insane. The two men ate and William asked all of the questions he could think about the outside world and anything else that Falstaff wanted to talk about. As the night wore on William offered Falstaff a payment for the meat, at first the big man refused but when William took his fiddle down and put it to his chin the big trapper smiled. He played for what felt like hours, a jig and then a lament, a love song, and then a spry tune about young men going off to war. By the time the two men had to sleep they were fast friends. In the morning Falstaff and William spoke again as he prepared to leave to see to his trap line.
“You take care young William” Falstaff began, “You are not as alone as you think in this wilderness, I have seen the Devil in these woods, and he’s not alone.” William told the old trapper that he hadn’t seen much of anything in the wood, let alone the Devil himself, but he would be careful. The wizened trapper asked if William had a rifle, and when he replied that he did not the big woodsman shook his head, “Your but a babe in the woods”, he gave him a black powder flint lock, “It’s too small for more than squirrel or rabbit but it might put some meat on the table or give the less than charitable a second thought” The two men shook hands and Falstaff climbed up on the saddle of his gigantic mount. “Be well young William, I will be back this way in the fall and we can share some of your soup and some tales and songs”. As Falstaff rode off toward the tree line William brought up his fiddle and played until the big man was lost in the trees and the white morning ground fog.
The winter finally passed, it had been hard but William had survived. As the spring started to melt the snow and the sun regained some of its warmth William started to work. He cleared and plowed a good bit of land, and then planted before the spring rains. As the days went by he set traps and went about building a bigger barn for whatever crops he might grow, finding some of the local long grains as good for breads he planted whatever could find.
In the first long days of summer he went out, compass and rifle in hand to hunt and find a better source of water than the rain. He was gone from his farm for four days when he decided he had enough meat, some pheasant, and a clutch of rabbits and a small deer that he would salt and keep for the long months that were ahead of him, he had also found a small creek that seemed to be teeming with fish. As he returned he checked his traps and found a few more small game animals, things were, for the first time in months, looking up. Once home he started to dig a well as his next project and as luck would have it he found water and was able to set some stones to build a not bad source of clean and cold drinking water. He sat down one night as the sun set behind the trees and thought to himself, “Peace and prosperity, who could ask for anything more.”
The days passed and for William it seemed that time had become a constant companion. Work was done as the sun shined and at night he would sing the songs he knew and play his fiddle, it was idyllic but there was something missing, William was of course alone. He spoke to the goat and the cow, the black pony and he had great long conversations about the people back in Pennsylvania, but he was alone and he felt it. One night while scraping some deer hides for a new shirt the strangest thing happened, someone knocked at the wood door. He held the buck knife he had been using for the hides tightly in his hand, and went to the door, “Yes, who’s out there” he called at the door. “Just a traveler on a long road, “was the reply. He cautiously opened the door. The stranger was about four inches or so taller that William. Maybe five ten, or five eleven, he was thin and surprisingly well dressed for this far away from anyone who wasn’t a tapper or a bushman. He had shined black boots, black pants, a fine black jacket and a white lace shirt. He wore a broad brimmed hat and a set of matched pistols around his waist, a long black riding cape finished off his strange appearance. “May I come in,” the stranger asked, William felt a cold chill run down his spine but it was poor manners to not let the man in. William ushered him and asked his name. “I am Jack the Cobblers son”, the man replied. “A strange name,” remarked William, “but well met Jack, am William,””No last name for such a fine young man?” The stranger asked. William stumbled for a moment, “I talk to so few people out here I have forgotten my manners, William Young, from York”, something told William it was time to lie, there seemed more than a few things about this man that were so wrong.
The stranger looked around William’s small home and remarked, “You appear to be well provisioned and well kept, is there a misses William Young.” William replied that he lived alone but had learned much from his mother, and so his home had her touches, the stranger asked if he had seen anyone over the last little while, “The road is long and I would like company on it so if there is anyone who you have seen perhaps you could tell me about them.” William was now really wondering what this man was about, “No I haven’t seen a soul in months” was his terse reply. The stranger sat down in one of William’s homemade chairs and stretched out his legs. “Not a soul, not so much as one person.” William asked the man his business, “What trade are you sir, I don’t see you as a cobbler.” The man replied he was a hunter “of a sort” but he had lost the trial of his quarry some weeks back and was just widening his search.”It’s not a matter of worry, I always get my prey.” The stranger retorted, to William and it almost sounded like a threat. All at once the stranger rose to his feet and looked William straight in the eyes. “You best not get in with the wrong sort of people good farmer, there’s a danger in running with the wrong crowd.” William felt the need to step back from the stranger; he had an edge in his voice that frightened the young man. “I don’t run with any crowd sir, I keep just my own company.” “A wise choice farmer, very wise,” the stranger said as he walked toward the door, “I might come back this way again and we can have a chat about your travels farmer William” .He walked out the door as if he owned the place, an arrogant swagger in each step. William watched him as he mounted his horse, a pitch black stallion tall and lean like his rider; William noticed the Sharp’s long rifle and the manacles that hung from the saddle. He rode off to the south right through one of Williams’s vegetable patches. Even in his loneliness William was glad to see this man ride off, “Good riddance”, William thought to himself.
The weeks pasted and William worked his farm, hunted, fished, and played his fiddle. He watched his little desolate piece of land become green and fertile, and he harvested the goods of his many labors. As fall approached he wondered if his friend Falstaff would be back as he had said he might be. In case he did return William went hunting for deer to repay his friends kindness in kind. He had been out five days or so tracking a herd of deer that seemed as elusive as smoke but on the morning of the sixth day he felt that today would be his day. Around midday he found there trail and followed it, it was a glorious day, as the sun climbed in a clear blue sky, the birds sang and the air was the scent of growing things, William was almost lost in the beauty of the day and then, gun shots. He ran toward the sound, pushing through the dense underbrush then suddenly he came across a man lying dead in a hollow in the ground. The man was a trapper by the look of him, rough clothes and a long hunting knife by his side, he had been struck in the head and the wound had been lethal. More shots rang out and William cocked the flintlock, and ran forward through the trees, he soon came across a second man, much like the first this man had also been struck a deadly blow to the skull and lay dead, two pistols in his cold hands. William felt his heart race, what had he stumbled into, he moved forward through the trees, the birds no longer singing, the air even seemed colder on his skin.
As he came into a small clearing he was stunned at what he saw. Two men circled each other, the first a gruff looking trapper, leather buckskin pants and a course overcoat, a flintlock pistol in one hand and a long knife in the other. The other man was a big man in a brown cloak, a tree limb in his hands like a makeshift staff, the two men didn’t notice William they were too intent on each other. The trapper called out, “She’s just a sqaw, its nothing, just a bit of fun on the trail” the man in the brown cloak glowered at the man, “I sent your two friends to hell, and if you don’t hit the trail right now I’ll send you to meet them.” He swung the limb at the trapper who nimbly stepped out of the way, “I got myself a pistol padre, all you have is a stick.” The trapper threatened, “If I was you I’d be the one skinning out.” The man with the limb took another swing at the trapper but he was a good three or four feet out of range. “What you have is one shot, and if you miss I promise I smash your skull like I did to your friends.” The trapper raised his pistol, from that close of a range there was no way he would miss. William raised the flintlock to his shoulder. “Drop your gun or I’ll shoot you where you stand.” He called out bravely, even though in his heart he was terrified. The trapper turned and stared in shock down the barrel of Williams’s rifle. “What’s this, the Calvary, well boy you had better shoot.” The trapper seeing William as the bigger threat leveled his pistol at him, in that second the man with the tree limb bellowed like a bear and jumped on the surprised trapper. There was a single shot, and then neither man moved.
William ran over, dropping his rifle as he went. The man in the cloak was lying on top of the trapper, as William approached he rolled off him on to the carpet of dead leaves on the forest floor. He let out a breath and grunted out “Well what a fine mess I’ve made”. William looked at the big man and realized he had been shot at least twice and now to add to that damage he had the long knife buried in his abdomen up to its hilt. The trapper was dead, his neck broken and on an odd angel to the rest of his body. William knelt down beside the wounded man and asked him if there was anything to be done. The man looked at him, smiled and said, “No son, I’m in God’s hands now, I’m spent, but there is something I would ask you to do, on my donkey on the other side of those trees is something very special, promise me you will take care of it for me.” William didn’t hesitate, “Of course”. The man on the ground looked up at William, “Then I charge you in the name of the Father, The Son and the Holy Spirit, take what I have given you and care for it with all your heart.” William was not a religious man, he had off course read the bible, it was the only book back on the farm, and he had met the preacher who came around every so often, and this man who was dying before him was obviously some kind of religious, some kind of preacher. William looked around for a second, the man on the ground said, “Bury the body’s son, and don’t leave a mark, not a trace of what happened here, it’s not safe.”And with that he grabbed Williams’s hand, “Thank you Lord for this man, I haven’t failed”. With that he lowered his gaze to his side and held up a small crucifix, he smiled and then he went to meet his maker.
William went to the other side of the trees to find out what this man held in such high regard to kill three men for, and to die for himself. As he came around the trees he saw a small campfire an old donkey some packs and nothing more, “It must be in the packs” he thought to himself, maybe it was Spanish gold or some religious icon. When he came up to the packs sitting on a large flat rock a woman came out from behind a bush, in her hand a skinning knife readied to strike. He raised his hands into the air and said, “I’m a friend”, she just stared at him with a grim intent. He took out his buck knife and dropped it to the ground, “See I’m not going to hurt you”. She said a string of words, none of which he could understand, and then weaved on her feet and fell heavily to the ground. She was badly injured from what he could tell, she had taken quite a beating and been patched back up but literally she wasn’t out of the woods yet. He went about caring for her, her abdomen was cut in several places and her wrists were damaged by rope burns, her shoulders were bruised and discolored, there was so much William thought for a moment of taking her to one of the settlements he had passed so long ago but that would take weeks of hard travel in the wagon and most probably she wouldn’t survive the hardships of the road.
He made sure the bandages were in place and made her as comfortable as he could and then he set to the tasks at hand. He found a small spade among the preachers equipment and buried the trappers in a deep hole by the hollow where he had found the first of the men. The preacher he buried with his head toward a great flat rock in the clearing, it wasn’t a marker, but he would be able to find this place again if he had to. The work took most of the day, he collected up the pistols and ammunition, and other bits and pieces of gear and equipment, and then he made a stretcher out of some tree limbs and improvised a rigging, attaching it to the donkey. He gently put her on the stretcher and grabbed the preachers pack and headed home. It had taken him six days to reach where he had found her, it took almost ten to make his way back to his homestead. She had been unconsous most of the trip back, which was in away a blessing, the rough terrain and the hard travel would have added to her pain, and somehow he felt gentleness toward her. She was about as tall as his sister Kate, perhaps they were around the same age, she was thin as a reed, but he could not help but notice as he changed the bandages how very feminine she was, curved and supple. She had dark skin, he had only seen one Indian in his life, the Regulars had brought a warrior into the town and hung him, and her skin was the same color. Her clothing was all skins tanned and decorated with braids and leather strips, a simple dress but somehow even cut and torn it was lovely.
He put her in his simple bed and changed the dressing on her wounds, washing away the dirt and grime of her time in the woods. The next day he noticed that she had a fever, so he made dandelion tea and a thin soup made of mostly onion to help combat the infection he was sure she had. Five days pasted, he never left her side but she showed little improvement. He was about at his wits end when he heard a familiar voice one evening. “Hail in the house I’ve returned for more of your merry music,” It was Falstaff; the big trapper would know what to do with the fever. William ran out and greeted his friend, the trapper was so glad to see William still alive after the winter and looking around the homestead he commented on how well he was doing, “Young William you have brought order out of chaos and made yourself quite a home.” William urged him to come in the house and as the big man ducked to get through the door he saw her on Williams’s bed. “You are a fine trapper, and this is quite a catch, a bit gamey, but still.” William explained about the infection he suspected and the trapper went out to his horse to gather some supplies. He made a mixture out of some herbs and applied it to her wounds, and a bitter smelling tea that she choked and gagged on as he made her drink it. “That should help” he told the young farmer, “I will teach you how to make the tea, it’s a curative of St John’s and some common herbs, the paste is mostly a mustard plaster that you can make here as well, it will draw out the poison, now the important question, where did you find her?” William gave the trapper all of the details of his hunting expedition. As the day wore on into night the two men talked in lowered tones. “She belongs to someone, that’s a truth for sure, from her clothes I would guess Lakota, but so far away from her native land I don’t quite understand, “said the trapper. William asked where the Lakota where from, and when it was explained that they ranged in the frontiers of the Nevada badlands William thought about the trip to take her home, the risks of going back into the United States, he was still a wanted man, and just the distance of it made his head spin. They also talked about William’s well dressed guest, which was a different conversation all together. “The next time you see him,” the trapper began, “for the love of all that’s holy don’t let him in, that man’s a minion of hell as sure as you draw breath, take those navy colts you found off the dead trappers and fill his scrawny hide with lead and shot.” William agreed that there was something about him that set him into unease, and the trapper was vehement about the navy colts.
They talked of other things as friends do and then stepped out into the yard so William could play his fiddle without disturbing his sleeping guest too much. The two men slept under an oak growing by the house, not falling asleep until they had discussed the whole of their time apart. As the sun rose over the tree line William woke with a start, he had become accustomed to his bed and waking up after sleeping on the ground had left him stiff and sore. The trapper had been up for some time and had made coffee, as well as helping himself to some of William’s sweetbread. “The fevers broke she should be round in a day or so, the sleep will build her strength.” Falstaff commented, “She will be right as rain in no time.” William got up, rubbing his hip which hurt from the hard ground, “I was thinking about the man with her, should I perhaps send her to his people?” Falstaff rubbed his great grey beard, and thought about the boy’s question for a moment. “I would guess that she was a translator of the wild tongues for him, Lakota, Cree, and Mohawk, some of which travel through these woods in search of game, he was most assuredly a missionary of some kind, a Jesuit or a Franciscan Father, there hard men to pin down as they move about with the tribes for the most part, but if you see one you could tell him your tale and I am sure that they would take her back with them, but know that sometimes these missionaries can be quite harsh on their charges, especially the unschooled heathens”. He couldn’t picture the man who fought so bravely for her, the man whose dying words were to take care of her with “all his heart” ever being harsh, but he was only one man of many. The day went on and the men talked about the wilds, the traps, and the hunting, they also talked of family and friends that they had not seen in such a long time. Around noon Falstaff said his good bys and mounted his great grey horse. “Play us a spritely tune young William, and I will see you when I am back this way with the snow.” William raised his fiddle and played “The Coast of Galicia” as the big man rode off into the tree line.
William trusting that his guest would be well went back to his work, still keeping a cautious eye on his charge. Two days after Falstaff’s visit she woke with the rising sun. She walked, slowly and a bit unsteadily like some newborn colt, out into the yard of the house to see William washing himself with a bucket of water he had drawn from the well. She looked at the pale skinned man and despite her worry about who he might be she could not help but giggle. He was tall and thin but muscular, his dark brown hair had grown long and he had it tied in a ponytail, he wore no beard which most white men did have, she wondered if he was too young for one. She had surprised him as he tried to clean himself and seeing her had sent him scattering for a shirt to cover himself with and somehow she found it hilarious as he tripped over himself trying to be modest.
She went back in the house listening to a litany of minor curses as he kicked over the water bucket and then tripped over his boots that he had placed nearby. After a few moments he walked in to the house, still wet but no worse for wear, he looked at her as she took stock of her new surroundings. “I’m William” he said in a cautious tone so not to frighten her, “You were injured so I brought you home, this is my house.” He mentally kicked himself, “This is my house” he thought, he had never been so nervous in his life. She looked around the single room, a bed, a table with one chair, a fireplace, some small things placed on a makeshift mantle, a soft rug woven tight, some worn dishes, sitting on the table a strange leather object that she could not recognize and by the door a flintlock rifle with powder and shot nearby. She turned to look at him, he had kind eyes was her first thought of him, and then she quickly pictured him tripping over his own feet to hide himself. She ran her hand over the object on the table and looked at him with a questioning glance. “Oh, that’s my fiddle”, he stepped over picked up the case and took out the old red fiddle, “It’s a fiddle” he said he pulled out the bow and started to play, a soft song at first, a love song. She had never heard anything so beautiful; as he finished the song he remarked, “See it’s a fiddle.” She smiled, and then darker thoughts entered her mind. “The padre “she asked, William looked confused for a second, “Oh, I’m so sorry, his injuries were too great, but he told me to take care of you and I promised that I would.” She turned, and tried to hold back the tears that came to her eyes. William sensed that she was upset but in truth he did not know what to do. He remembered Kate crying over the death of a horse back on the farm, he stepped forward and put his arms around her. “He told me to take care of you, you’re safe here.” She felt the warmth of his heart in the embrace, but still she wept.
He took her back to the bed in the corner of the room and set her down, “You still need to rest, and if you’re hungry I can get you something all you need do is ask.” She was tried and weak, so she wordlessly nodded and lay down on the bed. Hours later she woke to the smells of cooking. She looked around and saw him adding some herbs to a pot in the fireplace. She sat up and looked at him groggily. “It’s my own recipe for rabbit stew, it’s not bad,” he got up and got her a bowl and a wooden spoon and pulled out the chair from the table. The stew was rich and thick, and he was right it wasn’t bad at all. After she ate and he gave her a tall cup of cold milk he looked at her and said. “I don’t even know your name”; she looked over at him and said, “It’s Hayakatisou (Hay-a-ka-tis-sou). “It means Fallen Sister” she added and looked down at the floor. He stumbled over the pronunciation a few times before he finally got it.” What a lovely name” he thought about the strange name for a few moments and then asked, “I don’t understand, fallen sister?”
She looked away for a moment and then told him her story. “I was born one of three sisters, we were a gift to the Lakota people but the white Calvary came and killed everyone in my village, every man woman and child was slaughtered, my mother, my two sisters, my father all killed before my eyes. I escaped with the padre and he took me to where he thought that the whites could not find me, but they sent a devil after us and we have been running now for three summers.” He looked at her and said, “Not too many people come this way, in fact in a year I have only seen a handful, and most of them you know about, the trappers and the preacher.” He paused for a moment thinking about the well dressed man who had come by in the early summer,” There was one man but that was months ago, he’s long gone by now.” “Where were you going?” William asked. “The padre has brothers in Upper Canada with the French; he thought that all that distance away would guarantee my safety “she replied. William looked at her and his heart went out to her, hunted, no family, and no friends, truly she was alone in the world. “Well you are welcome to stay here with me for as long as you like,” in truth he was hopeful that she would stay, “You should be safe here, as I said, no one comes this way very much at all.” She looked at him and said “You put yourself at risk for someone you don’t know.” He thought about it for a moment, he reason for his journey here was to find peace, and he had found it, his life was the land, his work, his friend Falstaff, it was a life at peace but he couldn’t leave this poor woman out in the world alone, even if it meant that his peace might be disturbed or challenged. “I do” he said, “I think that you might like it here if you don’t mind me as company, if you want to leave a man I trust will be back here in the winter and you can go with him to one of the settlements and then make your way to the French colonies.” She looked at him and thought about his answer. He got up and brought his fiddle case down and took out the old instrument, he lovingly rosined the bow and then he began to play. She knew that there was something about this man that she liked.
The next day he thought about the sleeping arrangements, and then he got his axe and began chopping down a few more trees. In a few days he had built a second room on his small home, he hung an old thick blanket from the ceiling to the floor and now he had a second room, building another bed would take a few more days, a second chair he would worry about at another time, he really missed his bed.
During the day she taught him farming methods that he had never thought of, and the two of them worked the farm and lived a quiet lifestyle. As the weeks passed they became more comfortable with each other’s company as people do when they are put together, he told her his story without leaving anything out, the whole truth about running away from home because he didn’t want to fight, he told her about his abusive father and his loving sister. She told him stories of the Lakota people’s and stories of the land, he marveled at her tales of love and hardship overcome. At night they would eat a simple meal, tell stories or she would teach him words in her mother tongue, and then he would play his fiddle, he would play for her.
The trees took on a myriad of color and the morning fog left frost on the ground, the seasons were once again changing. They had a good harvest and he had dug a root cellar and made an addition to the barn to keep their produce well into the winter months, she had built a smoke house and taught him how to preserve meats without using salt. They decided that one more hunt would keep them through the winter months. They packed well for the trip, and this time he made sure to take the two navy colts just in case, she had fashioned a longbow and a quiver of arrows, he wondered at the effectiveness of such a weapon. They had been out for a three days, most of the bigger game had already started out for their winter ranges but there was still game to be had.
He came upon clear tracks in a thicket and the two of them made their way quietly after their prey, as them came through a clearing they saw a big buck, William raised the flintlock and took careful aim. They were not the only one’s hunting, a single timber wolf had been tracking the deer for a few hours and noticing that the deer had a limp thought it easy prey. Now the hungry wolf saw William from some underbrush and gauging that the smaller creature was easier to take down than the big deer, he changed his target. Just as William was about to squeeze off a shot the wolf attacked from behind, the speed of the creature was amazing and he had run up closing the distance in fractions of a second without making a sound. As the creatures sharp teeth pieced Williams shoulder he fired off the flintlock into the air frightening the wolf and making it jump a few feet back. William felt the pain in his shoulder, he felt his arm go numb and as he tried to turn he fell before his skilled attacker. She was a few feet off to Williams left, just in case he had missed with the flintlock she was prepared to take down the buck with an arrow, as William fell she turned to see the wolf leap at the downed farmer. In a long practiced motion she shifted the aim of the bow and let loose the arrow. The wolf was in mid air when the arrow went through his heart, he never felt a thing.
The bite had been savage but the deerskin jacket had taken away some of its power, the wound was of course still very bad. She ran over to William and cradled him in her lap as she looked at the wound, he was bleeding profusely and her first thought was to staunch the flow of his blood. She used anything she could get her hands on trying to pack the wound, but it was deep and William kept bleeding. He opened his eyes for a second and looked up at her, “did we get it” he asked before falling into shock. She started a fire as quickly as she could and taking one of her arrows she began to heat the flint arrow head. “Just come back to me”, she cried out in a loud voice, “Just come back.” When the flint tip of the arrow was as hot as the small fire would make it she pulled back the packing and the blood spurted on her deerskins, she then quickly cauterized the wounds. With the bleeding stopped shock was the bigger problem. She threw all the wood in the thicket on her small fire and found the bedroll in one of the packs, she wrapped William as well as she could and went about to build a lean-to as quickly as possible to get him out of the elements. She held him and prayed that he would open his eyes. She kept feeding the fire and holding William until the sun rose the next morning. William opened his eyes, the first thing he saw was her face close beside him, her body keeping him warm, keeping him alive.
They made their way back to the homestead and as they went William realized that he would of died if had not been for her. She commanded him to rest until his wounds were healed and she made a plaster and strong bitter herbs for his wounds. William wanted to get up, there was work to do before winter, but she made him stay at rest. She finished the harvest and put up some stocks for the winter and told him not to worry. One morning when he moved back the curtain he saw that her bed had not been slept in the night before, he dressed as quickly as he could and went out into the yard, she was skinning a fair sized doe. “You’re not the only one who can hunt” she laughed. His wounds healed quickly and well, and in no time he was back to work around the farm.
The rest of the summer went without incident, the hard labor of the harvest was for the most part done when the first of the winter frost hit and the two had been able to prepare for the hard winter months. They had become like a hand in a glove working together and living there simple yet somehow full life. As the leaves fell they would take walks in the forest surrounding their little farm, marveling at the beauty and peace of the place. The clock seemed to slow when they were together, nothing seemed to matter, not the people back in Pennsylvania, not the coming winter, not even the distance from the Lakota mattered when they were together. The days and nights seemed to melt into each other like a river flowing to the sea; time just was there, no longer an enemy but a companion on the journey.
One day in the late fall after a day of walking and planning the next year’s crop and a long discussion about getting a second horse the two of them went to bed. William drew the old blanket across the space between the beds and crawled under his hand woven blanket, resting his head on the straw and sweet grass pillow that Hayakatisou had made for him, just as he was drifting off to sleep he heard a sound, it was so very quiet that he could not easily identify it, he opened his eyes and looked. At the end of his bed she stood in the soft light of the moon through the open shutter of the window. Her hair down laying against her bare skin, “William” she whispered. He sat up and looked at her; an angel could not have been more lovely. She walked softly to the side of his bed, “I love you” her voice sounded like a song to him and as she spoke the words his heart swelled. She slowly moved back the blanket and laid down beside him.
They went slowly and carefully, gently and softly and as the night went by they held each other as if the whole world depended on their embrace, and for them their embrace was the whole world. In the morning they woke up together, still wrapped in each other’s arms.
As the fall grew colder, and the days grew shorter they spent more and more time enjoying the gifts of young love. William even wrote a song for her and gathered the last of the wild flowers for her to braid into her hair. She in turn made him a new shirt and a much better pair of boots, and everything seemed to be cause for a celebration of love. As the first of the real snows fell and blanketed the little farm in a magical white and frost covering William realized that his life could not possibly be any better.
The winter was filled with snow and cold but William and Hayakatisou barely noticed the bitter weather. As midwinter approached the two of them prepared for Falstaff’s return, William had a lot to tell his old friend and a few days before Christmas William heard a familiar voice. “Hail in the House, Fiddler are you still alive, I’ve brought meat and wine for a celebration.” William ran out of the house and warmly greeted his old friend. As the two of them came in he introduced Hayakatisou, and added, with a grin from ear to ear, “my wife” to his introduction. Falstaff remarked, “Some hunter you are to get captured by the game.” He laughed in a big joyous way that seemed to bring even more light into the little house. The three sat and talked while Falstaff cooked the deer and set up the bottles of wine. They were up half the night sharing stories like people do, reveling in good company and of course the music from Williams fiddle, which somehow sounded more alive than ever.
In the morning Falstaff took William outside as he prepared his mount. “Young Fiddler” he began, “I ran into your man with the shined boots, he is a bounty hunter hired by some Calvary officer who’s afraid his chance at being a governor will drift away like morning fog if word of the slaughter of an innocent Lakota tribe comes to light”. Falstaff lowered his voice so only William could hear, “He knows Hayakatisou escaped, and he has an idea as to where, it seems one of the padre’s brothers told him of their plans without knowing who he was and he’s been combing the countryside from the Niagara’s all the way to York looking for the girl.” Falstaff’s expression was dark, “I didn’t want to say anything in front of your young Miss, but I think the best thing to do for all, her and you, young William is to send her to the brothers at the French mission in Three Rivers, or, to send her back to the Nevada’s to unmask this villain, you two talk about it, I will return in the early spring and we can make up our minds then”. Falstaff climbed atop his great grey horse. “I am truly sorry William, but something must be done to protect both her and you my dear friend.”
As Falstaff rode off Williams heart for the first time in a long time was heavy. He couldn’t bring himself to tell her, yet he had to. The day went by and Hayakatisou saw the shadows in William’s eyes. Finally at dinner she broached the subject. As William explained what the big trapper had told him she tried to fight back the tears, but in the end, even with her strong heart she couldn’t. They talked about it, they cried and held each other as if that moment was there last together and as the sun set over the bare trees they, together, came to a decision. She would go to back to Nevada and tell her story to the judge in Whiskey River, a town near where the massacre had happened, she would hope for justice. She would speak for her dead sisters, her family, and her people and hope that somehow it would be made that the guilty would pay for their crimes. They held each other and spoke of the spring being far off and perhaps something would happen before she had to go to, something that would take her name off the hunters list.
Time has a way of never being what you want it to be, and before too long the first signs of spring started to show. They both knew that soon Falstaff would be riding up to their small farm and it would be time for her to go. They had talked about him going with her but it had been decided that it was better if he did not, not only to avoid his father’s wrath but it would be hard to explain to a judge in Nevada exactly who he was without going into the details of his crimes.
They worked the farm and drew even closer together, forged by love that comes from struggle. Each night they held each other close fearing that the next day would be there last. The weeks went by and the land grew warmer, this time however Hayakatisou and William were not glad to see the spring thaw, not happy to see the birds return, all they felt was the sadness and the fear of losing each other.
One night just after they had started to plant the spring crops there was a voice calling out to the house. “William Coveter of Burleigh County Pennsylvania, come out we have something for you.” William looked at Hayakatisou, “Stay here there looking for me.” Hayakatisou grabbed his arm, “William” she said, in her eyes fear. William grabbed one of the Navy Colts and stepped out the door. There were two rough looking men in long coats both with Winchester rifles on their hips and between them was Kate. William’s heart sank as he looked at her, it looked as if she had been dragged along behind the two for miles, she was covered in the dust from the trail and her hands were bound in front of her, behind the two men and their mounts on a small donkey was a white bassinet tied with heavy cord. “Why William we been looking for you all across this frozen waste and then we come on your sister at Brant’s Ford, looking to find you as well, quite a piece of luck”. The first man leveled his rifle at the young farmer, “Now you come along nice a quiet or I’ll split your sister like cord wood.” William didn’t know what to do, he had no choice, he felt the Navy Colt slip from his hand and fall to his feet. “That’s a boy” the first man quipped as the second chuckled.
From behind them a sharp whistling sound and then as if by magic an arrow appeared coming out of the second man chest, he turned to face his attacker but by then a second arrow passed through his neck, he slumped down on his horse. The first man was caught trying to turn his mount to face the direction of the attack and as he turned the shaft of yet another arrow caught him in his heart. He dropped his rifle never seeing where his killer stood. Hayakatisou walked out from behind one of the tall trees that surrounded the house, the bow still in her hand, an arrow still held in the string and a look of grim determination in her eyes.
Kate ran to her brother weeping. After a hug that nearly broke Kate’s ribs William looked into the eyes of his sister, both of them now in tears, “I am so glad to see you, what happened” William began. Kate fought with her tears, which at this point were a mix of shock and joy at seeing her brother. “Father wouldn’t let me stay after Jacob was born”. “Jacob” William stammered, Hayakatisou walked up to the brother and sister with the small white bassinet, her eyes on the small child that it contained. Kate looked at Hayakatisou, “Jacob” she said as if she was talking to someone who didn’t understand. Hayakatisou looked at the small perfect child, “An-nous-Ya Jacob” she said, “He beautiful” she remarked to Kate. Kate looked at the young woman in front of her, “I don’t know what to say, you saved us both, they were going to sell my son, kill me and turn William in for the bounty that father put on his head.” Hayakatisou looked at the two dead men; her eyes grew dark for a moment. “I couldn’t let them take William”.
The two women went into the house to take care of the baby and to attend to Kate’s wounds as William found a place in the forest to bury the bounty hunters; he thought about keeping their horses but thought better of it and sent them off into the wilderness. “They will find their way back to the settlement. He did take the rifles and ammunition as well as some of the other goods that the men had, including a wanted poster with his name on it. By the time William retuned Kate was in a much improved condition, Hayakatisou’s had a real skill in caring for the injured.
As William came in Kate turned to him, “I told you I would come some day, I just never thought it would be as bait with bounty hunters.” William asked her a million questions and then Kate began. “Mother is still alive but very ill; father didn’t want her around so we took her to her sisters at Fort McAlister, that was almost three months ago and I haven’t heard a word at all on her well being, I fell in love with Robert Clance from Allworth parish and well when father found out he went mad, he made up a charge of robbery and sent some of his friends from the Regulars to bring me home and take Robert into custody.” She paused, her eyes again welled with tears, and “They hung him for trying to protect me and Jacob”. As she told the rest of her story it became clear that William could never go back to the Pennsylvania. “Father became more and more bitter with each passing day; he raised the bounty on you to five hundred dollars dead or alive, and he swore that he would kill you with his bare hands if he ever got the chance.” Kate explained that madness gripped her father and as the days went by it just grew worse. William and Hayakatisou told there story to Kate, and as they came to the end of their tale Kate reached out and took Hayakatisou’s slender hand in hers. “You love him” she asked, Hayakatisou replied, “With all my heart”.
William being the practical one began to think of what to do with two more people to feed and shelter. The little house was in no way big enough for the four of them. As the night went on they discussed what would be done and by morning William was ready to go to work. It took William and Hayakatisou a little more than a week to build a small but sturdy house for Kate and Jacob, of course they would share all that they had with William’s sister but they did need their privacy. Kate went to work caring for Jacob and working on the farm and the new house, and she like her brother worked long and hard, all the while though she smiled, it was the first time since her brother had left the farm that she felt at home.
The two women had some time alone while William went out to check his traps and do some hunting, Hayakatisou made some berry tea and sat down with Kate as she fed Jacob. Kate looked into Hayakatisou’s eyes, “You’re pregnant aren’t you” she questioned. Hayakatisou blushed and said “maybe two months now”. The two women talked about what would happen when William’s friend Falstaff returned. “I will go to the Nevada judge” Hayakatisou stated, “I will seek justice for me and for my people, they might just kill me but I can’t hide here, and I can’t live on the run with a child in my arms.” The women heard the sound of horses in front of the house, both felt a deep fear; both knew it could be more bounty hunters. They peered through the shuttered window, yes it was more bounty hunters, and it was the worst of them.
The tall man who had introduced himself as Jack the Cobblers son sat on his tall black horse, he surveyed the little homestead. “William” he called out, “William Coveter, come out now, I’m not after you, just the squaw whore.” Kate looked at Hayakatisou, “I will distract him, run and find William.” Hayakatisou looked at her and nodded. Kate got up and picked up one of the Winchesters, she had no idea on how to use it but maybe just its presence would be enough. She stepped out of the little house bravely, “William’s not here, he’s gone to the French settlement at Three Rivers” she leveled the rifle at the two mounted men. The tall man looked at her with distain as the other man a gruff looking fellow drew a long barreled revolver. “Now miss, is that any way to greet a stranger, with a rifle and a lie.” Hayakatisou worked one of the planks loose and slipped out of the house silently, she had the other Winchester, and she cocked it when she was safely in the tree line behind the house.
The hunter looked at Kate, “You would be Kate Clance late of Pennsylvania, William’s sister, I guessed that you would be here, I will take the bounty on you as well, and your brother you say has gone to the French, let us see.” He nodded at the gruff looking man and he quickly fired a shot into the air with the pistol at his side. William was not that far off and when he heard the shot he dropped his trap line and ran toward the house fearing for the worst. Hayakatisou also heard the report of the pistol, she froze and then thought of Kate and Jacob, she turned back from the safety of the trees and sprinted toward the house.
Hayakatisou was much faster than William, and she ran straight into yet another bounty hunter who had been circling the homestead. He raised his rifle, “the squaw is wanted dead, just the scalp will do” he took careful aim, just at that moment William cleared the trees and seeing what was happening screamed out to Hayakatisou. She turned to see her husband jump in front of the third bounty hunters rifle shot. The bullet flew on its deadly path and struck William in the chest, he fell to the ground as Hayakatisou screamed and fired at the hunter. Her aim was true and the shot took off the back of the man head. The hunter heard the shots and said to Kate, “Now who could that be”. He told the other tracker to take Kate into hand, he looked a bit worried but the experienced hunter said to him. “Her rifles empty, the breach is open”, both men laughed a bit as the hunter spurred his mount toward the house.
The gruff man started to dismount and looking toward Kate said, “The bounty on you didn’t say what shape you had to been in to collect the reward and you are a pretty one.” As he put his foot on the ground Kate charged at him and using the Winchester as a club she knocked the bounty hunter unconscious, his other foot still hooked in the strips she smacked his horse on the rear, “Yah” she shouted, the startled animal ran off, smashing the man’s skull as it ran through the tree line.
The hunter came around the house and went into the small field behind it. Carefully looking around he saw Hayakatisou kneeling on the ground, cradling William in her arms, the farmer had taken a round in the chest and was bleeding profusely. He rode a few feet forward and drew his forty five caliber pistol gently from it holster, he leveled it at her.”He’s as good as dead squaw, now step away from him and the rifle.” Hayakatisou could barely see for the flood of tears in her eyes, she looked up to see the black clad hunter slowly bearing down on her. “I don’t want to make this painful on you,” he said, “I’m not a brute just a man doing a job so don’t run or try anything smart that will only make it go harder on you.” The hunter pulled back the hammer on his pistol as he rode to just a few feet away from the weeping Hayakatisou.
The hunter steadied his aim on the distraught woman, as he started to squeeze the trigger he heard a distinct sound behind him, a rifle bolt being driven home by a strong hand. Falstaff had come upon the homestead, he feared from looking at William just moments too late, but he would not let the hunter kill the love of Williams life, Hayakatisou would survive regardless of any other outcome. The hunter cocked his head, “You don’t want to do that, others will follow and your life won’t be worth a plug nickel”. The big trapper smiled, “Then keep a place open for me in hell,” he pulled the trigger of his Sharp’s rifle and the hunter was no more.
Falstaff and Hayakatisou saw to Williams wound, the bullet had dug itself deep into the young farmer and there was no way they could remove it without killing the boy outright. They stopped the bleeding but the round remained, Falstaff knew that William did not have much time. Hayakatisou comforted William as best as she could through her tears. “It’s just another bite; you will be back to your farming and your fiddle in no time.” William held her hand as tightly as he could, she never left his side. Six days later William the fiddler, husband and father died from his wounds, wounds he had taken out of love. Falstaff made a plot for the young man he had known and a marker with his name on it. As he finished laying the boy to his final rest he sang a sad lament to his only real friend in the world. Kate tried to comfort Hayakatisou, but she was inconsolable, after a week or so she packed a few belongings into her pack and spoke with Falstaff, they would still go to the Nevada judge; she would be the gift of the truth to her people, and to William. The day before the two of them left Falstaff made a rough sign, “Fiddlers Green” it said, he posted it on a sturdy oak tree a few yards from William’s home. “Be at peace young fiddler.” Falstaff said as he walked away from his work.
The morning came and Hayakatisou and Falstaff stepped outside into the sunrise, Kate holding Jacob, came out with them it was a fresh beautiful morning. Falstaff mounted his grey horse and helped Hayakatisou on to the black pony. “Come back Hayakatisou” Kate said, “This is your home, where you belong.” Hayakatisou looked at her, she could see William in her eyes, “Someday Kate, someday.”
The two rode off into the forest, Hayakatisou could not bear to look back. Kate worked the land and it flourished, and in time more people came to Fiddlers Green, and Kate told them the story of her brother and the woman he loved.
The years pasted and one afternoon late in the fall and old trapper rode into the small town of Fiddlers Green, he was a big man but the years had bent his back and weakened his great arms. Jacob a successful and happy young man went out to greet him. “Welcome stranger” the young man called out. The aged trapper slowly dismounted, “I have come to see Kate, the sister of the Fiddler” as he spoke the boy could see a fire in his eyes. The young man lowered his head, “My mother died two years ago during the winter, did you know her?” Falstaff, just smiled, “Not well enough, but I am a friend of her brother and his wife”. The young man introduced himself and when he said his name the trapper said, “You’re the infant Jacob, the last time I saw you, you weren’t the size of my hat” He hugged the boy, “At least some of the Fiddler’s family still lives” he remarked. Jacob looked at the trapper and in the back of his mind he heard his mother’s stories of Falstaff, when he asked the man’s name the old trapper looked at him and said. “I am Falstaff, brother of William the Fiddler, friend and companion of Hayakatisou, and guardian of her son William”. The younger man took his hand and said, “Come to the house you must be tired from your journey”. Jacobs’s wife brought the two men some tea as they walked through the stone house, in the main room there was a fireplace and sitting on the wood mantel was an old rough fiddle case.
“The old house is still standing, I have kept it up over the years, mother wouldn’t leave it even after we built this house and I just couldn’t see it fall into disrepair after she died” Jacob told the weary trapper. “I will stay there if you don’t mind” Falstaff said, “It’s really the only home I have ever known.” Jacob took the older man out back and down a garden path to where the house still stood, “hail in the house” Falstaff said quietly. That night Jacob sat with the old man and heard his story. Hayakatisou arrived in Whiskey River and before she could tell the judge any part of her story the Calvary officer fearing disgrace shot himself with his service revolver. Her and Falstaff went further south and found a Lakota tribe, where her son William was born, the delivery was very hard on her and her heart was not as strong as it was when she was with William. Falstaff guessed that part of her had died when William passed. She passed away quietly in her sleep about a month later. Her son was raised by the tribe and Falstaff stayed with them until the boy was old enough to hear the story of William and his mother. Finally Falstaff had decided that it was time for him to go back home so he packed up his things and made his way back to Fiddlers Green. As the night wore on Jacob told his story and the two men drank and as it was getting late, Jacob told Falstaff to give him a moment. He stepped out of the old wooden house into the night, a few minutes later he came back with the old fiddle case, he opened it lovingly and pulled out the fiddle, he played a few soft songs, a love song and a lament. Falstaff asked if he knew “The Coast of Galicia” the young man nodded and broke into the spritely tune, Falstaff closed his eyes, pictured his young friend and went off to meet him.




It was a hot summer day and most of the traffic on the 403 was just crawling along, most of it except for a black “Big Boss” Harley and its rider who were zigzagging in and out of the cars and trucks with a practiced ease. The Harley flew down the highway until it came to an off ramp just south of Brantford, were it peeled off and accelerated. Finally the bike slowed as it entered a little town, looking just a bit out of place on the quaint street with flowers on the curbs and cute small shops selling tourist trinkets.
The rider went past the perfect little houses and convenience stores without a glance and turning on to an old gravel road and then driving up toward an old stone church, the bike then came to a gentle stop. The rider dismounted and took off the black full face helmet, letting her long straight black hair fall to her waist line, just below the end of her black leather jacket. An old man walked down the steps of the church, “Can I help you miss”, he asked looking at her dark features, she was thin as a reed but a lovely young woman, and he wondered what she wanted here. “My name is Hayakatisou, and I am looking for my husband.”



The End (Maybe)